Melina’s Personal Writing Challenge October 2013
It’s been a year since I had to shut down my blog under my real name because certain family members were upset, uncomfortable, and unhappy with the topics I chose to write about. After much thought, consideration, and consultation with other writer friends, I opted to start a new blog, under a pen name. I didn’t agree with those family members, and I did not want to be silenced. I wanted to write, as it is one of the things I loved to do. It was something I wanted to pursue, something I know I’m good at, something that helps me feel alive, and something that purges my soul of the misery I’ve known.
This past year, though, I’ve not written, nor posted much. The rejection and condemnation of family sent me spiraling. It took weeks before I even attempted anything creative; months before I could even handle putting pen to paper, or fingers to keyboard. I still have technical difficulties with sitting down and writing; I question and doubt myself now more than ever when I write, which considering how much I did so before all of this, is of mammoth proportions. Much of what I’ve produced has been merely snippets.
Add in a wedding, a wedding gift project to complete, holding down and working 2 jobs, sheer exhaustion, and now Christmas projects to stitch, among the duties of everyday life, and well, writing has been put on the back burner over the course of the past year. But, no longer! I want to write; I love to write. Just writing up this little ditty (is that really a word??!!) has my blood pumping, and I LOVE it!
So, moving forward, I am challenging myself to write on a regular basis. Not only write, but POST too. I’m going to start with twice a week and go from there. Once seemed like too little to get me back into a groove, and three times was more than daunting. As it is, I have no idea how or when I’ll be able to schedule it in, but I will. I also know I will have to allow myself to share less than perfect pieces, and if it comes to it, merely snippets. My own worst critic, and ever the perfectionist, this will be difficult for me to do, but if I want to write, and I do, I must be able to give up a little control, or learn to give up a little of it so that I can move forward. Forward is the goal. Join me, let’s see where this leads!